| Location | Huddersfield |
| Age | 19 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 08/04/1989 |
| Date of Death | 07/12/2008 |
| Visitors | 3,217 since 12/12/2008 |
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What Lee suffered he told but few,
He never deserved what he went through.
He left us suddenly, his thoughts unknown,
But he left us with a memory we are proud to own
Lee died tradically at home on 7th December 2008 under difficult circumstances. Dearly loved son of
Diane & Les, dear brother of Kay, loving uncle of Jack & devoted boyfriend of Danielle.
I was 31 and Kay was 6 when I said ‘if I’m not pregnant by the time I’m 32 I’m not having
another’ but little did I know I was already pregnant with Lee. My pregnancy wasn’t easy I
think he was playing football day & night, and giving birth, well Lee wasn’t engaged when my
waters broke so it was a hard birth. Oh he was so beautiful and worth every minute of it.
Lee was such a good baby, I had to wake him to give him his feeds as he would sleep for 6 hours at a
time, I don’t know how but his development came on and he was walking by the time he was 1. Lee
started nursery at 3 ½, he loved going and he never wanted to leave! He had a parker coat at little
flat cap and people in the street would stop us and say how beautiful he was, he was a really happy
child.
Years went on we were very close, wherever I was so was he. On an evening he would sit in the chair
with me having me ticke his arms and legs, this must have gone on until he was about 11 when his Dad
told him he was too big now so he stopped sitting with me but he was still always with me.
Lee went to high school, he did not like it, it was so different to junior school but he went. By
the time he was 14 he was being bullied by a boy who was making him do things he didn’t want to
do. I informed the school and Lee was not the only one. Soon after the boy stabbed someone so he
never went back to school. At this time his Dad left us & he didn’t get in touch with Kay & Lee. I
thought Lee was alright but he obviously wasn’t. He started getting into trouble and would not go
back to school, I suppose I spoilt him trying to compensate for his Dad. Lee hardly ever saw his Dad
and at the time I never in a million years thought he would be smoking skunk. Lee had changed & the
next 3 years were hell but I stood by him thinking he would come out alright at the other end.
3 weeks before he he did that dreadful deed I moved out and left him in the family home. I
couldn’t take anymore of his so-called friends, it was more like their home than mine. He still
came to me at work and called me all the time when he wanted something. I hoped that my leaving him
would make him be more responsible and make him grow up but how wrong I was. All my life I will
blame myself, I didn’t realise that he didn’t want what he was doing and how much hurt and pain
he had inside. I used to tell him we would laugh at all this one day, now I feel like I will never
laugh again.
My beautiful blue eyed blonde haired boy, he was my world, he filled every day and now I’m lost. I
miss him so much, I would rather have the hell back. He is my soul, my heart, my everything. I just
wish he had thought about all the people that love him but it just must have been too much.
At the inquest on the 13th May 2009 the coroner recorded that Lee took his own life, a toxicological
report revealed a large amount of cocaine and marujana. The coroner said ‘The way life looks
through the eyes of a teenager isn’t always how it actually is. Although he could have got help he
was obvioulsy overwhelmed by these feelings and unable find his way out’
I will never blame him for what he did, I love him too much for that. I wish teenagers today would
stay clear of drugs, I honestly believe if Lee had not taked them I would still have him today.
On the 17th May 2009 we burried Lee's ashes along with his Grandma who sadly passed away 2 months
after Lee, hopefully he has now found peace.
The time has come and now we part,
Thoughts of you so close to my heart
The loss is like a burning pain
I would give it all, to see you again.
But no, your gone, In time I know
The pain will fade away,
The thoughts and memories will still be there,
In my heart you'll always stay.
♥ ♥ Many Thanks to everyone that lights candles for Lee, it means a lot ♥ ♥
This time last year, no one knew how much everything would change, not only you leaving us, but how much we would all change too.
Love lives on forever, it will never fade away, in our hearts & memories you are with us everyday.
Can't help thinking about this time last year, you going through everything you were on your own, and me oblivious to it all.....i'm so sorry I let you down Lee, I love you and miss you so much.
Until we meet agan xxxx
I have a precious son
who means the world to me
He's living with the angels
and is as special as can be
And even though he's up there
high in the clouds
he's still my precios son
and i am still so very proud
His picture takes pride of place
all around my living room
ready too be admired
by all who come to call
I know i can not see him
or hold him close to me
but i only have to close my eyes
and he is right next to me
I will never stop missing him
and wishing he was here
but sometimes i feel
indeed i know that he is very near
So be happy my precious Son
you will never be forgot
i love you so and always will
though i miss you such alot
We know how much you loved us
as much as we love you
and each time that we think of you
we know your missing us too
I need to say goodbye although you're with me.
I stand beside your grave, yet you are here.
I miss you terribly and hope you miss me,
But when I turn to you, you're always near.
I talk to you as though you lived within me,
Not changed but simply moved in from outside.
I know each day you must a little leave me,
But here, as always, you must be my guide.
You were and are and will be, just as ever,
In many minds and hearts, not only mine.
No physical event can such love sever;
Death is a dimension, not a line.
And so goodbye does not mean you are gone:
So long as I still love you, you live on.
Copyright by
Nicholas Gordon
Sat wondering how it can be almost a year since you left us, when iit still doesn't feel real, I am so broken hearted and don't think it wiill ever feel any better than this, how can it? Just want to give you a big hug and tell you how much i love you and how specal you are. How can it be that your gone forever, just like that, gone. Its so unfair you had to go through all you did, you deserved much better, you deserved a good and happy lfe, you deserved the best but you ddn't get that did you.
I love you so so much, maybe i only realise how much now your not here,,,.will be missing you forever and counting the days until we hopefully meet again....so i can hug you and never let go!
Love always and forever xxx
FORGET ME NOT
Forget me not, for I am there
In the beat of your heart,
On the wing of your prayer.
Forgive me my parting and leaving you thus,
A joyous reunion is waiting for us!
Continue to strive toward your goal and be brave.
Know that my love did not stop at the grave.
My spirit is with you through good times and bad.
I share all the joys and the sorrows you have had.
Feel my presence within your next breath
And realize there is no distance in death.
Ask for my help and I will answer your call.
Reach for my hand when you stumble and fall.
Run the last mile with a smile on your face.
My arms will be waiting when you finish the race.
Always remember, my love is right there
In the beat of your heart,
On the wing of your prayer.
~� Linda Shelburn Reagan~
angel lee
The more I believe in Angels
The more I see them all around me.
In friends, family and acquaintances.
It's amazing how much goodness you can see,
If only you believe.
"Wherever you go, whatever you do,
may God's angels watch over you."
This Beautiful Butterfly..
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Special Bond
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When you have a special bond
A love that is so rare
A life thats rich with so much love
Theres nothing to compare
And when that love is taken
Theres nothing we can do
So hold on to your memories
For they still love you too
That bond cannot be broken
Although we are apart
I love you still
And always will
Youll never leave my heart
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Written by Vicky Deaville
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♥ `*•.¸ 25th October 2009 ♥ `*•.¸
♥ To The Special Angel In My Heart ♥
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♥ You are the Angel who I cherish ♥
♥ So dearly in this heart of mine ♥
♥ The one who makes my day brighter ♥
♥ By making my whole world shine ♥
♥ During all the darkest moments ♥
♥ When my skies turn cloudy and grey ♥
♥ You're the one who touches my heart ♥
♥ And makes everything seem okay ♥
♥ Unknown ♥
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Hi my darling
Woke myself up cryimg in my sleep again
I have been helping Danielle she has got a house and it needed such a lot doing
I have found it hard you should be there wish i was doing it for you so you could have lived happily ever after its just not fair
Your aniversary is getting closer i am finding myself counting down the days 44 of them
We have been promised that your headstone will be ready for then hopefully we can celibrate yours and Grandma's life then i have to get through christas how you loved christmas although the last 3 wasnt happy ones for either of us
Cant wait till my day comes and i can hold you close kiss you then you will know how much i have missed you and love you xxx
We cant have old days back
when we were together
But secret tears and loving thuoghts
will be with us forever
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